The Nursing Board Exam

I finally took my NCLEX exam today despite me being sick with colds, runny nose and tonsillitis. I was stopped after answering 85 questions, and such trend could be a good sign since most of my classmates who took the test and who have encountered the same scenario passed the test. But I am clueless whether or not I passed the test.

I crammed the past two days, doing nothing but study. I slaved myself, day and night, with the NCLEX review book in my hands. The strict self discipline I had from those two days of burning the midnight oil came from me being sloth over the past four months. During those times, I did not do anything but sit around and complain about how miserable and sad my life is. How ridiculous was I?

Caroline, a cast from New Jersey Housewives on Bravo TV had been my inspiration to step up the plate and start acting like a bull rider. "Fuck 'em" is my new motto. I will no longer resort to thinking myself as a victim in this world. Yes, I am very tiny, and yes, I am a girly boy, but I found my new sense of self worth and strength. Most of it stems from Caroline's strong demeanor.

Growing up for me, and looking at the world with new mindset had been a struggle. It goes to show that spoiled kids, no matter how wonderful their life had been during their childhood and teenage years, will have difficulty adjusting into early adulthood. I have gone ups and downs, laughter and misery, joy and sadness-- all of it happened like a mad train speeding so fast in its tracks. Before I knew it, I was embarked into a new trail, a new understanding how life really works. And I want to be good at dealing with life.

For now, I am resting, hoping to recuperate fast from this sickness so that I could party hard in San Francisco this weekend!! Ahh...I just feel accomplished and yes, happy that I have done something useful for myself. :p